Saturday, November 29, 2008 / 11:27 PM
fuh. finally, i manage to find some time to post another entry. i'm so sorry, lagging behind lots of stories to be shared with you. i was busy with my examination. and out of 6 papers, i've already taken 5 papers since 21 nov 2008. and my last paper is this coming thursday, 4 dec 2008. by then, i really gonna enjoyed coz exams are over!!! yippy..
you must be wondering how i did for my past papers isnt it? well, first paper, it's my basic english paper. yup, believe me. it's english paper. just because i came from poly background, i have to this stupid test and eventually i failed that english test. all thanks to the topic on biotechnology. there are 3 parts to the paper. text editing, comprehension and essay. and everything will be about the same topic. and for goodness sake, biotechnology??? i have no idea what the comprehension passage is all about and i don't even know what to write for my essay on biotechnology. but lucky me for my last paper. i managed to do pretty oukaye coz it's about social issue. topic: teenagers' problems. more common general issue. and i hope i did quite well.
my 2nd paper, malay module as part of my singapore studies. sucks on the 1st session of the semester! coz i hate all the histories about the malays. generally, i hate talking about history coz it's just not my cup of tea. but i'm left with no choice. i have to remember those theories. hope that the 2nd part of the module (topic: social issue) will boost up my marks. and i really hope i manage to answer it accordingly. and you know how long we have to answer each questions? you have to write 4-6 pages for each questions. oh my god. my hands were asking for help when i was writing the paper. wanna know what's the questions? there are 4 questions but i choose these 2 instead:
(1) malay centres of power during the pre-colonial perios were mainly coastal or riverine kingdoms. why were seas and rivers important for the ruling class and the formation of malay-islamic polities? how did the coming of european powers change all of these? describe the process and the consequences.
(2) provide examples of dominant stereotypes that caricature malays & socio-economic lag. analyze the ideological function of the stereotypes in relation to groups that perpetuate them both historically and in the contemporary perios. discuss some plausible adverse implications of the persistence of the stereotypes on the malays themselves and the larger society they live in.
my 3rd paper is on urban planning. the only module that i took this semester which is related to real estate, the course that i study. if you were to look into my time-table, everything else falls under faculty of arts & social science. sigh. out of 4 questions, i have to answer 2 too. and for this paper, it's open book examination. another thing i hate coz once it's open book means it's gonna be harder and based on application. for this paper, i just couldn't understand how majority of the students can submit more than 1 booklet which consists 10 pages each booklet. sigh. i hope it really doesn't matter as long as my quality of answers are there. below are the questions that i've picked:
(1) urban planners are generally aware that the planning ideas of ebenezer howard, frank lloyd wright & le corbusier are based on utopian concepts. nevertheless, many of these ideas have found their way into the planning & urban design of many contemporary cities in the world. using specific examples, write an essay, to highlight the pitfalls of applying such concepts without careful regard of the local social, cultural and economic contexts.
you know what? once i typed the above question, i just realised that i forget to mention something in my answer script. oh no! *pray*
(2) the minister for national development recently highlighted that planning for singapore in the future will be "increasingly challenging" as we use up more of our limited land resources. he noted that "providing more land to support one use would mean less land for other uses. our environment will be more built-up, and greater trade-offs among various uses will need to be better managed". discuss how key dilemmas in land allocation has been addressed through appropriate planning strategies in singapore's concept plans, and whether such strategies are still applicable for the future, given the challenges highlighted by the minister.
4th paper next. it's my sociology paper. at first i hate this module coz it's so dense everytime during lectures. but lucky that tutorials were much more interesting and i manage to follow-up from my tutorials. and eventually, i kinda fall in love with it either. but still. this module really cracks your brain coz you have to remember all the theories and philosophy. there 7 questions and i've picked the 3 questions as follows:
(1) "two images of the criminal - that of the rational actor and that of the robot - have been in continual competition in explanations of crime". discuss.
(2) how would you define the family as a social institution given that there is a wide diversity of family forms in contemporary society?
(3) is it necessary to make a distinction between middle class & working class in the context of modern capitalist society?
some questions above are more like common sense but yet, you cannot write an essay of lay-man terms. soci words have to be include. just like how a sociologist will think and write. sigh. as if i'm major in sociology. haha. but it's oukaye. manage to go through that. but the 5th paper is my statistics paper. i hate it and it's my first paper that i can't really depend on it. well, there's 1 a4 helpsheet that is allowed to bring into the examination hall. but although that happened, the questions just unpredictable. and majority of the students did left some blanks and couldn't manage to finish the paper. most of my friends also have the same thinking as me - the paper is so demoralising. well, we hope some moderation will takes place for this paper.
and my next paper is on nature & society. about environment. sigh. i hope for the best. hahaha.
behind all these exam thingy, stress thingy, there is another sad story that happened to my so called uncle who leave at KL. he's not my direct uncle. he's actually the son of my grandfather's sister. see how's complicated the relationship gets when your family grows. haha.
sigh. during the fasting month, he did called me and said that he's not feeling well. he kept on saying that he faced stomach pain. but eventually, few days before he passed away on 24 nov 2008, he was warded to icu and doctor found out there was a frozen clump of blood in his stomach. although we are far by distance, but yet his family really good to us.
i could still remember when we when to KL for our holiday. and he became our tour guide together with his son, ali. everything that we wish for lunch & dinner will be served despite we keep on saying "don't trouble yourself. we can eat anything". there was a time i'm craving for ikan terubuk bakar & eat that with kicap sambal. yummy. he bought the fish for me and his wife cooked that. i'm so touched. and i miss the ayam rempah goreng with jintan manis. superb. every morning we eat this along the street eating place, where they work. he is also the first person to wish me good luck for my car practical test coz the next following day when i reached singapore, was my test day. and he even told me that once he got the money, he will make passport for everyone in the family, travel to singapore and i shall tour him around with my car here. below is one of the picture on memories of him together with his wife and the 3 of us.
i shall pray for him. hopefully tuhan mencucuri rahmat keatas rohnya. amin.
sweet memories are meant to be keep fresh in mind. true?
well, today i spent my day. whole day at home. watching dvd coz i just realised that there's a quite a number of movies that i haven't got a time to watch them. so, 2 movies that i managed to watch. kinda old movies but yet, i didn't regret that i watched those movies for my weekends.
starting with made of honor. i wanted to watch this movie when it was release but couldn't manage to find the time. such a romantic movie. and sometimes, you wouldn't realise that you are
in love with
your own best friend. to you, it might be impossible. but wait till he/she is gone in your life, and by then you will realise how the away of his/her existence bring great differences to your life. and if you really love him/her, do tell her, get her and be with her!
my 2nd movie was sydney white. talking about
college life where friends in college are those who you can be with for the rest of your entire life. and upon watching this movie, all i remembered were my
2 darlings. you know who i'm talking about. they are really such a good friends. and they are indeed a good sisters too. and good darlings of course. they always be there when i'm down. and they will make sure i leave my life happily as much as they would be happy for me. with the proposal from
sheila & jiha, i'm
really touched with their idea and helps. not in the real proposal. of course not coz we are not lesbian! we have our loved ones. and we loved them much. as much as we loved ourselves and as much as we loved each other.
at this moment of time, i couldn't help much them in terms on monetary/financially. thus, all i could do is my effort, my time and my love for them. i helped jiha by sending her brother, mimi to the airport coz he went to
perth together with his school. the memorable part of this. we went on thurs and we realised that we got the wrong date of the flight schedule. yup! imagined that. it's only when we reach at the check-in point. hahaha. so, went back to the airport the next day. and this time around, was the correct timing. hahaha. ate
popeye during the 1st trip.
my baby accompanied too and he treat us.
thanks sayang. and during the 2nd trip, baby was tired out so i was alone. together with jiha & aisyah (her sis) we went to
al-almeen at bt timah to have our supper.
jiha had mutton murtabak.
aisyah had mutton chop.
and i had coin prata. disappointed coz the gravy has changed. used to be the mutton chop gravy together with the mutton as well. but now, it's minched mutton instead. sigh.
and jiha treat us for this.
thankiu darling. i love you lots. really owe you lots. and i
promise that i will never forget you, sheila and of course my baby for all your good deeds to me. and once i'm working and got my pay, will
treat you as a
token of appreciation. *muacks*
hmmm, november & december known for holiday months. during this month, lots and lots of malay weddings can be seen everywhere. on
23 nov 2008, my step uncle's son got married. below are some pictures.
i don't really know what's this called. but act as decoration at the pelamin. i love the roses. it smells just so nice. lovely. how i wish i could get roses as well. owww. haha.
the pelamin. the theme colour is blue & white.
below my void deck also has wedding taking place. but it's dark grey & white colour theme. the smell of the food they cook, just gets into my nose and makes me hungry. besides, the songs accompanied were all old songs, romantic songs. so lovely.
looking at all these pictures, reminds me of
sheila. she's getting married in july. and right now, she's preparing her wedding together with the family. hope everything goes on smoothly. and i just
can't wait to be there during her wedding day.
wedding. marriage. goes well with made of honor movie. make me think. when will i get married? to whom i will get married with? you wouldn't know coz all these will be fated by god. macam orang tua-tua kata, jodoh & ajal maut di tangan tuhan. kita merancang tapi tuhan yang menentukannya. but i'm hoping for a lovely, romantic husband who truly loves me, understand me and will always be there for me till the end of our lives. insya-allah. baby, wanna you to know that i loves you lots. *muacks*
Sunday, November 23, 2008 / 8:25 PM
i'm not single. a film directed by
pierre andre & hanung bramantyo. i must say: congratulations on producing such as a wonderful movie. romance.
it is a romantic comedy that star acting by farid kamil, awal ashaari, lisa surihani & intan ladyana. it is such a sweet movie. and taking into another side of the movie, you will realise how big is the meaning of love to you when someone really love you lots. indeed more than you love your partner.
in this movie, both of them get married due to their parents' requests. they never fall in love with each other before. and they even quarrel most of the time all along their marriage. but sooner later, due to an incident, the lady realise that her husband actually care & love her so much that he willing to do lots of stuff just for her. to make her happy.
one thing that we can take positively in this movie is that you will never know how much your partner loves you regardless of whether he ever mentioned to you, "i love you". just like in this movie, he never mentioned "i love you" to his wife but actually in his heart, he do loves her. he miss her whenever she is not by his side.
words doesn't prove on how much your partner loves you. he might say "i love you" millions of time but yet he always hurt your feelings. on the other hand, he never mentioned the three powerful words but yet his love for you is way too deep. more than anything else in the world. but of course, ladies will always want to hear those sweet words. at least once in a lifetime. or maybe sometimes, a man haven't fully commit on the relationship that leads him to remain silent along with the relationship. there's saying, ladies fall in love by their ears, men fall in love by their eyes. ladies will melted with all the sweet words and they believe that words should be true. and on the other hand, men will fall in love by what he sees in their partner. love. is always complicated. trust me. but once you found your mr right or mrs right, love is wonderful and full of romance.
another thing that can be found in the movie is that, you will never know deeply the characteristics of your partner unless you married them. like in the movie, boyfriend-girlfriend relationship is not enough to know who exactly is your partner. after they got married, there are lots of things that the husband found in his wife. and no matter how the wife actually hates him, he will never fail his best to act out his responsibility of being a husband including in loving & taking care of her.
well, there's another romantic movie coming out title "selamat pagi cinta" means good morning love. this movie consists of 2 stories of love. looking at the trailer just now, seems to be like a nice show but yet to conclude coz i haven't watch it myself. but if you are the kind of person who loves to watch such romantic movies, proceed and watch this movie k?
anyone who have watched this movie, please give your comments to me k? i would like to hear either.
love. what's love? it's true that you have to love yourself first before you seek out for love. but i dunno. love is something that motivate me to be stronger in my life. especially when someone out there loves me as much as i loves him. like saying goes, "behind every successful woman, lies a man at their backbone".
no one knows what is exactly that state in my heart. even my baby. no one knows how much i do love my baby despite all things that happened. no one knows how much i need him by my side especially when i'm lacking of confidence, motivation, moral support and etc. no one knows how much he means a lot to me in my life. people might think that i'm just having my fantasy, my dream that will never achieve. but dreams are meant to be realities if you go along with it. and of course, my dream in love is to love him as much as i love myself. getting married with the one you love is everything. i used to say this to myself, or maybe i have this principle about love, "to love is nothing. to be loved is something. to be loved by the one you love is everything". i hold on to that. there is no point if you fall in love with him but in the end, he didn't. it takes 2 hands to clap. but everything will change is you are being loved by the one that you love. it means the greatest. the greatest thing that happen within the circle of love is being loved by the one you love.
will i achieve that? will my baby loves me as much as i love him? will my baby take care of me whenever i'm by his side? will my baby realise that i love him more than anybody else in the world besides my family? conclusion: no one knows how much i love him. it stays in my heart and the one that knows very well are myself & god.
Friday, November 21, 2008 / 8:51 PM
have you ever watched this movie? it's
message in a bottle. an adaptation from the book "message in a bottle" written by
nicholas spark. for those who loves reading, will know what kind of author he is. most of his novels do not contain happy ending. indeed this novel too. i read the book and i cried. i watched the movie too and i cried again. it's the
most romantic novel i ever read.
there are some movies from his books too. if you could recalled "the notebook" and "a walk to remember". well, both the movies are very romantic and touching too as well isn't it?
oh well. me being romantic person. of course i would love all those romantic stuff. including romantic books. romantic movies. romantic scnery. and i wish for a romantic boyfriend too. haha. and i just wish to write something that is romantic. and that's me! =)
let's switch the topic from movie to songs instead. gonna share with you some malay songs again. haha. me & malay songs just can't be seperated. haha.
cinta dalam hati (love in the heart) by ungu
mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
(maybe it's my fate)
mengagumi tanpa dicintai
(proud without being love)
tak mengapa bagiku asal kau bahagia
(it doesn't matter as long as you are happy)
dengan hidupmu, dalam hidupmu
(in your life)
telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
(it has been a long time i keep this feeling to myself)
menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
(waiting for your heart to accept me)
tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
(it's doesn't matter as long my love for you exist)
bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku
(happy for me)
ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menunggu dirimu
(i want you to know that i'm right here waiting for you)
meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku
(although i have to wait till the end of my life)
dan berharap rasa ini akan abadi untuk selamanya
(and hope that this feeling will stay on forever)
dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
(let me hug for you for this time only)
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
(for me to say goodbye for the rest of time)
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja
(and let this feeling of happiness exist for only a short moment)
actually this song has exist for quite some time. but i just feel like sharing with you this particular song. hahaha. this song is suitable for those who is trying hard to make the other party fall in love with you but it's fated that the love between you and the other party just can't happen. but yet you will be happy if the other party is happy with his/her life.
sad huh? there's another sad song to share with you. this song below is new on the list. the group is also from indonesia & indeed they are known as being festival group. why? coz they never fail to take part in whatever band competition that happen in indonesia. so, check this first hit song of their 1st album.
cinta ini mumbunuhku (this love hurts) by d'masiv
kau membuat ku berantakan
(you make me miserable)
kau membuat ku tak keruan
(you make me lost my mind)
kau membuat ku tak berdaya
(you make me weak)
kau menolakku acuhkan diriku
(you push me away, didn't bother me)
bagaimana caranya untuk
(how to)
meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
(soften your heart)
ku sadari ku tak sempurna
(i realise that i'm not perfect)
ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan
(i'm not like what you wish for)
kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
(you hurt me with your behaviour)
tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
(didn't you realise that you have hurt me?)
lelah hati ini menyakinkanmu
(i'm tired for proving to you)
cinta ini membunuhku
(this love hurts)
oh well! enough. enough of sad songs. hahaha. but i'm just tying to share with you some songs. don't think negatively k? hahaha. indeed coz i'm still happy.
i went back to office just now. meet my baby. had lunch with him & the rest of the colleagues. and the best part, abg khalid is also there to drop by around 1600hrs. so, he had his smoke break with me, mike & later followed by my baby. and the most unexpected questions from him are....... guess what he said? (K as abg khalid and S as syaf).
Scene 1:
K: maner hanafi?
S: he is in the office. just came back from his estate and yet to rush for some cyclical works.
K: lah, aru nk ajak dier hisap rokok jap?
S: why not you give him a call?
K: (laugh) why me? you lah call him.
S: ish, sounds so wrong. i tak hisap rokok then nak ajak dier hisap rokok. it's just so wrong.
K: (laugh) tkpelah. you call him then for sure he will come out.
Scene 2:
K: so, bila nak kahwin? tak bagus tau tunggu lama-lama? stay together too long.
S: (laugh) kahwin? knpe? you nak sponsor?
K: (laugh) if i sponsor bukan i masuk meminang untuk hanafi, nanti i sendiri meminang untuk diri sendiri. ar! nanti hanafi suruh i minang you, in the end i minang untuk diri sendiri.
S: (laugh till drop) tu lah. nanti nak kahwin dengan orang lain, orang lain yang muncul.
sigh. he just too experience in everything. although he didn't know about us be together. before we are even together, he always tell me that he like the both of us to be together. he said that we just fit to be together. and he always tease us by introducing him as my fiancee. haha. if only what he said come true. oh yeah, it really come true. in the sense that we are now as an item. but not as my fiancee. haha. i know, still early. still got long way to go. like baby ever mentioned to me before, don't rush time. time will be there. and i know, he is the kind of person who will just follow with the flow. i got to respect that coz there's saying "expect the unexpected". and the more you expect something, it won't happen anyway. so, i just wait till the time when he gonna be totally serious. i mean in the sense of introuducing me to his family and vice versa. and by then, insya-allah if our relationship is blessed by our both parties, i gonna thank to god. coz i finally able to find the happiness that i've lost them.
baby always remind me to take things one step at a time. just like jordin sparks song huh? hahaha. at this moment, he want me to concentrate on my studies and being patience with whatever problems i'm facing right now. and i will try my best for sure baby. true, it's for my future. and baby, if you are part of my future too, it's gonna be our future. that's when the concept of "me" have to be replaced with "us".
sigh. baby. i'm just so in love with you sayang. for sure not because of your physical appearance. that's 2nd point. but most importantly, it's your heart. how you deal with your problems. how you lend me your listening ear. how you guide me through my life. how you make me becoming more wiser and stronger. the way you lead me in my life just makes me fall in love with you. afterall, heart matter the most rather than a person physical appearance itself. coz it will fade away when time passes by. but your heart will remain and i'm attracted to that baby. and nothing will replaced that.
Thursday, November 20, 2008 / 2:36 PM
dear lover.
that's the meaning of the song dealova by once. an indonesian group artist. baby loves this song indeed. and everytime i heard this song, will always reminds me of him. besides the 2 songs that reminds me of him, tercipta untukku by ungu and relaku pujuk by spider, now i have to add into the collection dealova by once.
at first, we were unsure what is the meaning of dealova. even none of the word tend to appear in the lyrics itself. and eventually, i manage to find out that dealova means dear lover in other language. can't remember which language through. but the main motive is, the lyrics of the song. i fall in love with the song the first time i heard the song too. well, actually, this song has exist quite some time back too. and kinda old song but the lyrics is so meaningful. check this out ya.
once - dealova
aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati telah letih
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan akan
kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yang ku hela kau selalu ada
hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi
selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada
for those who don't understand this lyrics, let me translate it. it's actually he singing for his partner. thus, this song is so lovely for dedicating to your partner.
he wanna be in her sweet dreams.
he wanna be something that she will be missing about.
all because his steps were stopped without her around.
and he sick and tired about that situation.
he wanna be something that she will touch.
he wanna her to know that he always praise her.
without her, his heart seems finding for her.
and her shadows.
she is the singing of his heart.
who keep on missing her.
just like the air that he breathe.
only her that can make him calm.
without her, he feel lost.
and lonely.
well, that's basically the song is all about (roughly). check the song out at the youtube if you haven't heard the song yet. it's very soothing. yet lovely. yet meaninful lyrics accompanied by the rythm. you gonna love it for sure.
and baby, i'm dedicating this song to you sayang. every single words in the song is the same meaning to my life about you. without you, i feel empty. coz you have been there to guide me through my life, going through the obstacles that i faced in my life. without you, i feel lonely. coz you never failed to cheer me up when i was down. without you, i feel miserable. coz only you can make me happy for the rest of my life. and without you, my dreams are meaningless. coz my dream is only about you, and to be with you till the last breath of mine. and i wanna you to know that you are my motivation in life. you motivate me to be stronger each & every single day. and without i realising it, as days passes by, you are actually the air that i breathe and i wish for one dream which is to be by your side till the end of my life. love you lots baby! muacks!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 / 12:18 AM
baby, i miss you.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008 / 7:00 PM
family.
i was studying for my final exam just now, based on my sociology module. and one of the topic is about family. actually, it leads to questions myself here and there. so, i thought that i wanna shared with you what i've studied just now. and at the same time, leads to some general knowledge to most of you. at least, it's part of learning too coz i tend to recall back what i've studied. haha.
3 questions to ask yourself. what is family? what is ought to be a family? and what does the family does?
different people have different ideology of what they want in their family. who consist of their family members. what is the role of the family members and etc. even like me. i have my own basic concept of my family. married & kids. but do you know that in some other countries, they don't really practice like a norm in here. i mean some countries does not practice that husbands & wives stay together after married. instead the wives will be staying together with their siblings & parents together bringing up the kids. and actually, it's more complicated if you notice.
right now. in singapore concept. there is quite a change in family structure & concepts. let me introduce one after another.
1. sandwich generation: where you stay together with your parents & kids. in which where you have to take care both your kids & your parents at the same time. limitations may occur of course. but it depends on how you settle your situation problems at time. so, do you mind doing through this state in your future family?
for me? i don't really particular about this coz afterall it's my responsibility to take care of my parents. doesn't matter whether it's my biological parents or in-laws. even if one day i were to get married, and my husband want me to stay together with him & his mum, i don't find it a nuisance. although, you know people keeps on saying that daughters will never click with their in-laws especially. haha. but this stereotyping has to be change. afterall, his mum is still my mum. ceh. haha.
2. nuclear family: younger generations tend to settle their own family themselves. after getting married, they went out of their parents home. some still try to stay as near & close as possible. as at 2000, do you know that 82% of us are actually settled ourselves as nuclear family.
well, it's not wrong either. from what i think, as long as you keep in touch with your parents, siblings & relatives, it won't really matters. in singapore, how far is far anyway right? the furthest distance from one point to another in singapore is only 30 miles. and we have wonderful public transport infrastructure as well. so, don't have to worry. haha. i mean, you can make to a point that weekends you will drop by your parents home. they will be glad for sure. hehe.
3. marriage (another topic in which discuss during lecture): at once, you married for love & romance. but it's actually more than that. that's when you start to consider your bills & household chores, etc. and because of this limitation, most people outside is still single. due to many reasons of course.
one point that my lecturer made was that male tend to get married to someone who is lower their education level. is that still particular in this context? means, if i'm now a degree holder, my husband has to be phd or master at least? gosh! no way. i mean, i don't believe such thing. afterall, despite whatever education level i posses, i'm still his wife. you know what i mean. i can be someone of higher rank at my work place. but once i'm home, i have my responsibilities to carry out to him, his parents (if any) and our kids. and he is still the leader of the family.
talking about responsibilities. will joint responsibilities exist in this world? where husbands does not compare roles of husbands & wives. such as washing dishes & clothes, sweeping the floor, changing nappins of the kids are actually wives' responsibilities. in my opinion, there is no boundary. it should be joint responsibility. together we do household roles hand in hand. not necessarily women have to do all the work at home right. that's when the 2nd shift occur. where women already work hard in the office and yet to continue working hard settling household chores. but on the other hand, husbands also work hard in the office but shake legs when reach home. i mean i don't mind that but not everyday! we have to work on together. is there gender inequality? haha. this question always repeat during lecture. anyway, i think it brings on stronger bonds between me & my husband if we do things together. quality time include as well. haha.
4. children: are they assets or liabilities? even now, there is so called known as weekend parents. in which their kids will be send to their parents home instead. or maybe to some other maid, nanny. so, you only take care of your kids or even see your kids during the weekends. in the end, you tend to get closer to those people who take care of your kids instead. or your kids tend to be more closer to the person who take care of them rather than their own parents. somehow it has to be compromise. seriously.
so, what actually family to you? throw away marriage thingy. coz at this point of time, family means our parents & siblings. including our grandparents. but once you get married, everything will change. a son who get married will then start to be stuck between two parties - the wife & the parents, etc. it should be more of equality. i know it's easy to talk about but yet hard to tackle when in real life. haha. we shall see.
oh ya. sharing you one article that my lecturer projected that during lectures. where parents are getting worried when their kids remains singles. and i know my baby too faced this problem. everytime he go back kampung, his relatives will keep on asking when he will get married. haha. well, back to the article, they tend to help to look out for partners for their children. and last time, according to the article in 2006, as long as you are below 31, you can be reconsidered for my daughter/son. coz they said after you reached 31, nobody wants you. hahaha. you know what? i laughed to myself. who said that nobody wants a man/woman of that age. i'm still interested with my baby for sure. and insya-allah, if god permiss us to be together till the end of time, i do baby. *wink*
anyway, age doesn't matter as well to me. you know i know. gone through here and there. afterall, no point also having same age partner and yet you can't handle well with the relationship. at least i'm happy having my baby. and i appreciate having him in my life.
but those who stick to remain single, doesn't mean you don't have mutual support. coz you still have your siblings or even good friends. just like me too. i have good friends who never failed to shower me with their mutual support. =)
Monday, November 17, 2008 / 11:19 PM
barclays singapore open 2008 (golf) has ended last sunday. as i mentioned in the previous entry, winner or champion of the competition will actually bring back home US$50,000. upon conversion to singapore dollars, its S$75,000 roughly i guess.
it was really a tight fight between all the player. lam chih bing who was leader for the 1st day eventually collapse to co-leader on the 2nd day, and eventually drop till 18th position. however, he told the news that he was happy with his performance although he didn't win the competition. that's the spirit! haha. so, who is the champion?
the picture above:
jeev milkha singh. congratulations to him. currently, updated news, he is now ranking 46th in golf. wow! so, baby, when will you be in that position? you will never know. hahaha.
second place were shared with 2 golfers - ernie els from republic of south america (if i'm not wrong) and padraig harrington from ireland. seriously, the competition was a tight fight. at once the leaderboard then to keep changing. at one point, he might be at the top and eventually then collapse and vice versa. according to berita harian, els even mentioned that he can't predict who gonna win the competition. but singh won the victory. congratulations once again.
hmmm, enough of golf. sigh. i really need a part-time job, where i could work while schooling. and eventually during my vacation break, i could spend my time working instead. since i got no allowance now, might as well i find a way out to get my own income. where i could spend the money for something i really need to use. so anyone have any recommendation? tag me here k and we shall discuss further. hehe. i'm serious. =)
and this point of time, you will know who is your true friend. i mean, with me having no income and yet they are there to be by my side. of course. no other than my baby and my darlings. i really appreciate every single thing that they have done for me. without them, i don't know what would happen next. thanks baby. thanks jiha. thanks sheila. love you lots lots lots. *muacks*
its true like what people said, life is like a roller-coaster. and life is like a wheel. at one point of time you will be on the top and at another point of time you will be down at the bottom. having great people around you will makes you happy with your life. seriously. and indeed i am happy now, with them around me all the time. *wink*
Thursday, November 13, 2008 / 7:24 PM
well, i kinda lost of mood for today.
if you do face this stupid mood, what will you do? talk about something that for sure cheer you up ryte? exactly. today enrty gonna be something different. coz i gonna talk about golf! yes, and i really mean golf. wanna know why?
the main reason why i gonna talk about golf is simply because talking about golf means talking about my baby as well. talking about him will juz makes me happy for sure. everyone knows he's into golf. he loves golf so much that he wish he could play golf almost every single day. hmmm, actually i have zero knowledge about golf. seriously. but somehow being with someone you love, makes you wanna know what is it all about. somehow i kinda get influence. slowly, picking up knowledge about golf although i have not touch a golf club before. haha. but just gonna write it down what i have learnt so far.
basically, today is the first day for barclays singapore open 2008 which was held at serapong course located at sentosa. this event will be up till 16 novemeber which is this sunday. well, if you didn't know about this event and wish to go for this event, you can still purchase daily tickets which is located at the main entrance of the tournament (next to sentosa office). Price for fri will be at $20 and $50 for sat & sun. however, if you are students below 18, simply flash your student card and your admission will be free! for those under 15, you have to be accompanied by an adult. oopz, sorry. so, you still have your chance going for the event. 3 more days to go. and champion will bring back US$5 million. wow!
today event. it was stuck for 2hours which only resume the game back at 1415hrs due to raining. singapore. what can you expect right. one second it is sunny & another second it will juz be heavy downpour. and by then, you have to run for shelter. haha.
so, who is the leader for today? guess what? it's a player from singapore. are we gonna be proud of him? haha. lam chin bing rank 1st for today and i hope that he gonna remain at that position till the end of the competition. he has the score of -4 and (67) hole/aggregate. oukaye, i gonna admit that i don't really understand the whole system of golf. anyway, there are four players ranked 2nd place. they came from australia, russia, england and india. so, let see how's the scoreboard gonna be the following day. will lam chin bing stay at the same position? we wouldn't know.
well, my baby went for the competition just now. and i know how happy he was when he manage to get the ticket. to him, golf is everything. golf is the only reason for him to be happy. and eventually, i'm glad that by watching golf somehow will boost up his happiness for the day.
hmmm, golf is a sport using different types of clubs such as driver, a putter and irons which hits a ball into each hole on a golf course by having lowest possible number of strokes. and a hole is classified by its par. so, in this bso (barclays singapore open), its known to have par-71. indeed, most major competition will be playing to a par of 70, 71 or 72. well, back to the basic. golf clubs is basically the golf sticks. so, what's the difference between a driver, putter and irons?
picture tells it all: (from left to right) a driver, a putter and an iron.
a driver is basically has the longest range of any golf club in a golfer's bag. it has large head with a deep face. it is designed in a way to hit off the tee for the first shot of long-yardage holes. a putter on the other hand is designed to push or roll the ball along the ground towards the cup. means if it's close to the cup, then will use putter. am i right baby? lastly, irons are generally used for shorter shots compared to driver. wow! at least now i manage to know the different types of golf clubs. actually, there's in detail information which you can find through the net. my baby ever explained to me once what the difference between stainless steel irons & etc. if i could still remember, stainless steel is for more accuracy. correct me if i'm wrong baby? hahaha.
handicap systems. i ever asked my baby how do you calculate your handicap and unfortunately he didn't explained that to me. and now i know why. because calculating a handicap is often complicated. but basically, a handicap is a numerical measure of an amateur golfer's ability to play over 18 holes. In which, it is essentially representing the average over par of a number of a player's previous above average rounds, adjusted for course difficulty. you get it? haha. i don't either. but it's oukaye. sooner later, i will understand for sure. haha. simply means, the lower the number, the better you are. professional golfers don't use handicap system actually because their handicap is calculated to be zero or even lesser, negative. This people are then referred to as "scratch golfer".
there are different types of shots, hazards that can be talked about too. but i'm not going to talk about that. i guess, knowing this basic terms of playing golf will then slowly developed my knowledge on golf. haha. being with my baby, and i don't even know a shit about golf - something must be wrong isn't it? haha. thus, i'm learning slowly. bit by bit and you wouldn't know that i might be able to hit the ball as well. haha. just kidding.
i know golf is such an expensive game. the equipments can cost you more than thousands of dollars. but if you are really interested in golf, well, you should venture out. seriously. at the same time, you should try all kinds of stuff while you still able to. haha.
you know what? i'm feeling better now. slightly happier than before i blog this entry. thanks for my baby, giving me this idea of topic for today. haha. maybe i shall talk about other kinds of games as well in some other entry. *wink*
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 / 9:51 PM
i was surfing the net while watching tv in my room. and suddenly, the advertisement in suria was showing about ungu. yes, ungu came to town on 31st october, which was a week ago to perform at esplanade. wish to go but yet didn't have enough cash to fork out actually.
but that's not my main point. the moment ungu sang "tercipta untukku" at the end of the advertisement, i remembered my baby who is resting at his home right now. why him? he dedicated this song to me. before we were together, he said to me that, that particular song reminds him of me. if you understand the lyrics, you know how sweet & meaningful the song is. and it's even more perfect at this moment when i'm in love with him. and i really do want him to be right by my side all the time. indeed always. and hopefully forever. insya-allah.
"relationships are about what you out in and what you take out. And the only people who can judge the worth of what they receive are the people in the commitment. It can be best be valued by the person who give it to."
the above sentences got me to stunned. i was reading my independent portfolio for my english course. and one of the readings have the following in the passage. and it got me thinking.
i got to agree with the above sentences. in fact relationship are about lots of things:
1. trust - you have to trust your partner. the more you trust your partner, i bet you that the more your partner will loves you too.
2. commitment - relationship without commitment is like losing someone you loved in your life. both of them have to be paced on together. without commitment, your relationship seems to be lots of problems. and commitment means both parties have to commit to each other.
3. fall in love - when i say falling in love means your love for your partner grows stronger and stronger each and every single day.
4. best friend - your partner is the only person who deserved to be your best friends. like jiha said to me, "when they are our best friends, they will then be able to share every single thing in their life with us"; in which i gonna agreed with her.
5. sharing a cup of tea together - it does not mean physically sharing a cup of tea together. basically, it's about sharing every single thing in your life together with your partner. without fail, share with them. that's the main time when you both will know each other better. and even include everything that is part of your life.
6. giving in - you have to give in to your partner most of the time. throw your ego away. same goes to your partner. the moment your ego overcome your feelings for your partner, your feelings, care and concern for your partner will start to fade away.
7. sacrifices - this is either important too besides trust. you have to sacrifies most of your stuff for your partner. either you sacrifies your free time, your energy, etc. but this sacrifies should not come by force. it should be come by inner you, being sincerely sacrificing for your partner.
8. intimate moments - not literally have sex of course. but being with each other, spending your time together and talk things out will definitely know your partner inside out better.
9. missing your partner - the moment you are separated from your partner and there is this kind of missing feeling occur in your heart, simply because you are falling in love with your partner. deeply. you will only miss your partner when you sincerely love your partner.
10. sincerity - every single thing that you gonna do, from the (1) - (9) things about relationships have to be sincere. and definitely, you sincerely in love with your partner. when you are sincerely in love with your partner, thus, you will care for your partner, you will never have the intension to hurt your partner too. so, happily ever after.
well, those are some of the things that should be in a relationship. only then, you will be happy in your relationship. but still, there are some other things that some of you might think of too. different people have different thoughts. but actually, to me, there's a lot more others to include too. if were to mentioned, it will never end. haha.
basically, i accompany my baby just now to do his night arrears. i smiled all way long. coz every step that we took just reminds me of what happened in the past. we spend our time working together. on how he helped me to do night arrears and vice versa. how we tease each other along. how we jokes around while tiring working too. and how chemistry between us start to spark around between us. and here we are now.
i love you baby. and i'm missing you badly right now. =(
Monday, November 10, 2008 / 10:53 PM
my past weekends were spent together with my darlings. again. and i enjoyed myself. on whatever event, as long as we are together, i'm juz enjoying myself.
on sat, the girls went out to vivo for one main reason: find dress for jiha. jiha has dinner & dance event to attend together with her managers. so, we met each other at 2pm. had lunch together. and eventually, we survey at quite a number of shops for her dress. and finally, around 5pm, she decided one this particular black dress at nichii's fashion city. quite reasonable price. only cost her $36.90. it's a dress with sleeve even. she don't have to find shawl since it's covered.
well, i hope she enjoyed the D&D. update us with news oukaye darling jiha? *smile*
ryte after that, we chill out at the deck of vivo. sitting by the sunset. we chat and chat. never ending stories. everytime we meet, there will sure be topics to talk about. and one of the topic, abt jiha finding the mr. right. hehehe. i can't wait for her to fall in love with someone again. and whoever you pick, you know that we will be ryte behind your decision. hehe. so jiha, any news about that guy? hehehehe.
oukaye oukaye. we shall put that topic aside. when the time comes, we'll know. kalau ada jodoh tkkn kemana. i'm i correct darling? hehe.
so, next! i gonna share with you all the pictures that we took at the deck.
sheila & me
me & jiha
jiha & sheila
and finally, all of us together. darlings.
basically, we have dinner after that. together with endy too when he came by around 7pm. had lots of laughter. jokes here & there. talking about travelling. teasing sheila & endy on how well they know each other. and when the store is closing down, we proceed back home. coz, sheila need her sleep. and me too. coz we will be dropping by at hong kah resident's day which is located in front of her block. the colleagues were there too. they are given their individual duties to help out. and of course, i meet my baby too.
enjoy the pictures below ya.
this is the stage where lucky draw & performance were held.
but sadly, with all the 9 coupons that we have, not even one we manage to win the lucky draw. blame mike for this! he said that he will give our lucky draw coupon to the GOH but... we still didn't win. haha.
the lovely couple. endy & sheila.
sheila's sister - fadhila. look how similar they are.
we didn't miss the chance too.
me with my 2 of the important person in my life.
it's endy, sheila & fadhila. they are just gonna be a happy family soon.
the girls together.
there are also mini games available. some bugs & bunny (throw dart), table bowling, dino land (throw rings into the dinosaur's head) and many more.
fadhila picking up her dart for her game.
enjoying myself playing the dart game.
sheila throw her dart.
endy seems so pro at it. ahakz.
endy with his table bowling game.
and soon. time for makan. ahakz. meet the colleagues there too.
cailing, huimin & charmaine - like they are discussing something.
endy is talking to abg azhar. and baby seems so tired.
the girls were talking with sheila. and yet, mike "interupted" in the pictures. haha.
sheila, huimin, charmain, cailing & me. 2 ex-hktc members were ryte at both end. haha.
mike & skye.
mike & skye pretending to be james bond.
baby & mike. mike, don't kiss anyhow eh? hahaha.
after the event ended around 1pm, my baby & i went to sheila's place. we had lunch together. endy cooked fusseli chicken mushroom pasta. yummy. the last time i ate that was like 2-3 years ago during raya. haha. and i'm addicted to it.
besides that, we watched russell peter's show too. his show at NY. it was super funny. we all laughed till we lost our breath. haha. from the beginning till the end, all of us were laughing non-stop. it's really racist jokes. those who can't take the jokes, better don't watch. ahakz. but i really enjoyed watching all his shows. hehe. soon, i wanna try get the show he had at singapore few days ago. =)
it was a tiring day for all of us. but yet, we enjoyed ourself for sure.
Thursday, November 6, 2008 / 6:35 PM
Relaku Pujuk - Spider
Ku dikejar bayang bayang resah
Bila hatimu masih tak berubah
Enggan dipunya dan dipenjara
Belaian cintaku ini
Aku bukan lelaki yang tewas
Bisa menyambar walau ku ditolak
Biar diuji kanan dan kini
Kau kan tetap ku miliki
Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung
Kalimah cintamu
Yang ku tunggu tunggu
Biar jasadku yang menanggung
Permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk
Janganlah kau salahkan aku
Terus memburu menawan cintamu
Tak ku percaya sedikit masa
Kau kecundang akhirnya
Usahlah kau bersedih
Dihadapanmu aku hadir
Memadam resah dan curiga dari hatimu oh
Apakah kali ini bisa kau tolak dan berlari
Setelah aku menamat azimatku
Whenever this song is playing through the radio or mp mp3, it reminds me of someone. someone who bring great happiness to my life. someone who shine me with the light in my new life. we sms-ed. and when i pretend to be merajuk, he will sms me with this song. in the end, we end up sending each other this song lyrics, one line after another. and you should know who that "someone"represent. no other than my honey.
Tercipta Untukku - Ungu
Menatap indahnya senyuman di wajahmu
Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu ku ungkapkan
Kepada dirimu
Aku ingin engkau s'lalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Di setiap langkah
Yang menyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin engkau tahu
Kau slalu milikku
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku
soon, he confessed that this song reminds him of me. which i don't even know why. but looking at the lyrics, tend to make me feel so touched. it's about you want that someone being by your side, in every way that you step into your life. and although one day, god might take away your soul, you want that person to know that he/she will always be yours forever. and he/she is the one that you love throughout your entire life.
so baby, which part of the song makes you to recall upon me? The starting? Talking about looking at her smile makes you freeze. you then understand the meaning of real love when she hugs you tightly?
my dearest baby always say two things:
1. mata you jahat means in english i have naughty eyes (in which i don't know what he meant by that. everytime i have to prompt him telling me but he yet to tell me. he said it's a secret.)
2. senyuman manis means in english sweet smile
so dear, you better tell me soon what you mean by (1). i'm waiting. *wink*
Can I Have This Dance - Vanessa Hudgen feat. Zac Efron
Take my hand
Take a breath
Pull me close
And take one step
Keep your eyes
Locked on mine
And let the music
Be your guide
Won't you promised me (And won't you promised me)
(That will never forget)
We'll keep dancing wherever we are going next
(To keep dancing wherever we are going next)
It's like catching lighting
The chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can i have this dance
(Can i have this dance)
Can i have this dance
Take my hand
I'll take the lead
And every turn
Will be safe with me
Don't be afraid
Afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you
Through it all
No mountain too high
And no oceans too wide
Coz together all night
Our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe
That we're meant to be
I fall in love with this song, a soundtrack from high school musical 3. it's the most romantic scene for me. dancing on the rooftop. the moment i hear the chorus part of the song, i start thinking about my dearest sayang. it's like one in a million finding someone like you, my dear. and i'm fortunate to be part of your life. sigh. can i have the dance too baby? so, when will i dance together with you? *wink*
you know baby? sometimes when i think back, i just couldn't believe that you belongs to me. you know what i mean. we spent on time working together at work. till the day, i resigned and at that moment you start to miss me right? haha. better admit. before we are together, colleagues are already fond of us being together. and true enough, we are together now. and i'm so happy that i'm yours baby. lots of memories are shared together. and every moments my heart beats, it turns out to be your name. every night i tend to dream about you. every event in sports reminds me of you - from soccer, to golf, to tennis. we are man utd fan. and we are nadal fan. red belongs to our forte too. what a coincidence. that's when you start calling yourself mr brad abu pitt hanafiah nadal. oh no! what a name. haha. but we shared songs together too. listen to them at work together. breakfast together. lunch together. and even sometimes dinner together. i could still remember the first time you asked my name. i could still remember the first time you accompanied me for my rc meeting - how you scared me with lots of stuff. i could still remember when you called me, sri bulan. from where all those names appear, i also have no idea. But being with you really put a smile in your face. Laughter that never ends. And i'm even laughing typing this out now. Oh ya! i forget about the office joke - on how i become your 2nd wife. haha. well, it all started with the staff communication event that leads us to be closer. we get to know each other better. and then, we had our ojt with the rest of the colleagues. those dirty nonsense jokes that were put up by me & sheila especially. sigh. i really miss those moments. sometimes i just wish that i could turn back the time and feel again the moments. there's too much to be said. and if i were to type that in, i guess it will never end. haha.
afterall, my baby is everything to me. i realise that i just want to spend my life with him. till the end of time. insya-allah.
sweet memories are meant to be keep fresh in mind. true?
starting with made of honor. i wanted to watch this movie when it was release but couldn't manage to find the time. such a romantic movie. and sometimes, you wouldn't realise that you are in love with your own best friend. to you, it might be impossible. but wait till he/she is gone in your life, and by then you will realise how the away of his/her existence bring great differences to your life. and if you really love him/her, do tell her, get her and be with her!
my 2nd movie was sydney white. talking about college life where friends in college are those who you can be with for the rest of your entire life. and upon watching this movie, all i remembered were my 2 darlings. you know who i'm talking about. they are really such a good friends. and they are indeed a good sisters too. and good darlings of course. they always be there when i'm down. and they will make sure i leave my life happily as much as they would be happy for me. with the proposal from sheila & jiha, i'm really touched with their idea and helps. not in the real proposal. of course not coz we are not lesbian! we have our loved ones. and we loved them much. as much as we loved ourselves and as much as we loved each other.
jiha had mutton murtabak.
aisyah had mutton chop.
and i had coin prata. disappointed coz the gravy has changed. used to be the mutton chop gravy together with the mutton as well. but now, it's minched mutton instead. sigh.
the wedding date.
i'm not single. a film directed by pierre andre & hanung bramantyo. i must say: congratulations on producing such as a wonderful movie. romance.
have you ever watched this movie? it's message in a bottle. an adaptation from the book "message in a bottle" written by nicholas spark. for those who loves reading, will know what kind of author he is. most of his novels do not contain happy ending. indeed this novel too. i read the book and i cried. i watched the movie too and i cried again. it's the most romantic novel i ever read.
the picture above: jeev milkha singh. congratulations to him. currently, updated news, he is now ranking 46th in golf. wow! so, baby, when will you be in that position? you will never know. hahaha.
sheila & me
me & jiha
jiha & sheila
and finally, all of us together. darlings.
this is how is look like from sheila's block.
the lovely couple. endy & sheila.
we didn't miss the chance too.
me with my 2 of the important person in my life.
the girls together. 
fadhila picking up her dart for her game.
enjoying myself playing the dart game.
sheila throw her dart.
endy seems so pro at it. ahakz.
endy with his table bowling game.
cailing, huimin & charmaine - like they are discussing something.
endy is talking to abg azhar. and baby seems so tired.
the girls were talking with sheila. and yet, mike "interupted" in the pictures. haha.
sheila, huimin, charmain, cailing & me. 2 ex-hktc members were ryte at both end. haha.
mike & skye.
mike & skye pretending to be james bond.
baby & mike. mike, don't kiss anyhow eh? hahaha.